ANNA LOOK ATME IM TOO DRUNK TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO DOO THAT
[Despite texting that though there actually is a big delay between it and her next text as she enables speech-to-text. Trying to fumble her way through text is just too hard at this point, and sure calling would probably fix that instead. But also, y'know, there's no way in hell she has the courage to actually talk about any of this out loud.]
God can you imagine. Recolle would still be fucked over just in a different way. Especially since we were both fucking stupid back then.
Look I'm not actually going to do anything. [Or at least that's what she's telling herself right now. She actually downed another shot before responding to that part because she didn't want to know what she really thought about it.] But fuck man. I'm scared. I don't know what I'm turning into but I don't think it's good.
[she says it to herself and the speech-to-text picks it up, and she's too drunk to give a shit to delete it. this must be really fucking bad if Rose is admitting that she's scared. bad enough that it gets Anna to down another swig of whiskey.]
I don't know what you're turning into either but I'm not going anywhere Here's some gay shit but I think about you the same way I think about the city My entire fucking life changed forever when I moved here and when I met you We fucked up a lot but you made me really really happy too No romo
What I'm saying what I'm saying is that I'm ride or die for you by now I don't know shit about shit but I'm here for anything you need You're always gonna be rose to me and fuck whatever else happens
[There's another long delay because Rose is drunk enough to be melodramatic, and even if she wasn't being melodramatic at the moment, this is. A lot? She can't remember the last time she really got choked up at something, let alone at something even remotely positive.
But she just... didn't really think anyone cared about her this much outside of her family, and even that's being put to the test. She keeps people at arms' length apart for a reason. It's easier that way when every time she's tried to do otherwise just led to her fucking it all up. So hearing this from Anna, seeing proof for the opposite despite everything that's happened, well. Let's just say Rose is beyond glad that this is not a phone call.]
You are way too good to my hot mess of an ass but fuck. Thanks. I mean it. And same to you. If you ever need anything just tell me.
Thanks Thank you I need the balls to say half of this shit sober so either of us remembers it
[but it's down in text now. they can pretend it didn't happen if they want, but Anna can already tell she's gonna be looking over this for months.]
We're both messes We're both fucking disasters driving off different cliffs at the same time
[she wants to say something reassuring but she's too fucked up on her own emotions and memories (and fuck A2, that robot bitch can take a back seat) to think of anything even a little helpful. this is all just shit that Anna had wanted to say for a while. maybe if she'd said it more back then—no, fuck that. the past was the past. they're better like this. she said it herself.]
I don't do shit for my birthday anymore but it's coming up next month If we're still You know You want to come over? We can get fucked up and watch a shitty movie or something like we used to It'll be fun I'll get some of those fancy cake slices
Pretty sure I could be fucked up enough to be in the hospital and I'd still remember this.
[LIKE. HONESTLY SPEAKING. She won't forget this any time soon.]
Cake and bad movies? After all these years you still know the way to my heart. No romo.
[It'll actually give her something to look forward to, too. She's not sure when the last time she had something relatively positive planned with someone instead of something just spur of the moment.]
[yeah. Anna's fucked up right now, but this is. this is good. and she's going to make sure she remembers it.]
Well don't get hospitalized or anything either I'll spend my birthday in a hospital if I've got to but they probably won't let you watch shark themed monster movies
I'm shit at making plans so you can just text me on the 16th whenever you're on your way over Or you can just show up It's not like you haven't seen me with my pants off before
[now that she's thinking about it, why even pretend like they need that kind of formality?]
Fuck dude honestly if something urgent ever comes up you can just show up at my door and I will drop everything to help I mean it This flower shit gets bad and I will do everything I can to fix it
There's a good chance we're going to end your birthday in the hospital though. So you might wanna be prepared.
Yeah? If you ever see a giant flower that sounds like me outside your door when you're half-naked then just remember you said it was fine.
[HONESTLY SHE'S JOKING or at least trying to make a joke about it, but we all know the truth. WE ALL KNOW HOW POTENTIALLY REAL THAT IS.]
At risk of repeating myself for the millionth time though same to you. Whatever weird shit that comes from being a robot I'll do anything I can to help.
Hahaha fuck You know I love it when you say ominous shit like that I got you though
[she's successfully parsed that second bit as a joke (but not as much of one as it could be), but hopefully Rose just means they'll get alcohol poisoning together on her birthday! you know, normal things that professional adults do.]
I'll give it a rest with the sappy shit too You know me, only know how to say it when I'm drunk Promise I'll be less disgusting in person
[Normal, healthy ways to spend time as adults of course!]
Honestly. Pretty sure we'd both combust if we said half the shit in here in person. But if there's anything I've learned it's that being able to say shit while you're fucked up is probably better than never saying it at all.
Yeah but like I usually know what you're saying anyway I think people are okay at reading you but I don't know I'm fucked up
God I'm just going to end up going in circles like this Just just take care of yourself okay Retro specks bullshit is easier to deal with with you in it Haha fuck I can't stop being gay what's wrong with me
Maybe I should give it a rest for tonight if this is all I'm going to be able to do until I sober up That's like the responsible thing to do right That's what an actual 26 year old woman with her life in order would do right
You're talking to the wrong person here about what an actual adult should be doing with their life. But given that I'm probably about to pass out myself I agree this is what adult women with their lives in order would do. I'll see you when I see you. And you better be in one piece still when I do.
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IM TOO DRUNK TO FIGURE OUT HOW TO DOO THAT
[Despite texting that though there actually is a big delay between it and her next text as she enables speech-to-text. Trying to fumble her way through text is just too hard at this point, and sure calling would probably fix that instead. But also, y'know, there's no way in hell she has the courage to actually talk about any of this out loud.]
God can you imagine.
Recolle would still be fucked over just in a different way.
Especially since we were both fucking stupid back then.
Look I'm not actually going to do anything. [Or at least that's what she's telling herself right now. She actually downed another shot before responding to that part because she didn't want to know what she really thought about it.]
But fuck man.
I'm scared.
I don't know what I'm turning into but I don't think it's good.
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[she says it to herself and the speech-to-text picks it up, and she's too drunk to give a shit to delete it. this must be really fucking bad if Rose is admitting that she's scared. bad enough that it gets Anna to down another swig of whiskey.]
I don't know what you're turning into either but I'm not going anywhere
Here's some gay shit but I think about you the same way I think about the city
My entire fucking life changed forever when I moved here and when I met you
We fucked up a lot but you made me really really happy too
No romo
What I'm saying what I'm saying is that I'm ride or die for you by now
I don't know shit about shit but I'm here for anything you need
You're always gonna be rose to me and fuck whatever else happens
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But she just... didn't really think anyone cared about her this much outside of her family, and even that's being put to the test. She keeps people at arms' length apart for a reason. It's easier that way when every time she's tried to do otherwise just led to her fucking it all up. So hearing this from Anna, seeing proof for the opposite despite everything that's happened, well. Let's just say Rose is beyond glad that this is not a phone call.]
You are way too good to my hot mess of an ass but fuck.
Thanks.
I mean it.
And same to you.
If you ever need anything just tell me.
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Thank you
I need the balls to say half of this shit sober so either of us remembers it
[but it's down in text now. they can pretend it didn't happen if they want, but Anna can already tell she's gonna be looking over this for months.]
We're both messes
We're both fucking disasters driving off different cliffs at the same time
[she wants to say something reassuring but she's too fucked up on her own emotions and memories (and fuck A2, that robot bitch can take a back seat) to think of anything even a little helpful. this is all just shit that Anna had wanted to say for a while. maybe if she'd said it more back then—no, fuck that. the past was the past. they're better like this. she said it herself.]
I don't do shit for my birthday anymore but it's coming up next month
If we're still
You know
You want to come over?
We can get fucked up and watch a shitty movie or something like we used to
It'll be fun
I'll get some of those fancy cake slices
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[LIKE. HONESTLY SPEAKING. She won't forget this any time soon.]
Cake and bad movies?
After all these years you still know the way to my heart.
No romo.
[It'll actually give her something to look forward to, too. She's not sure when the last time she had something relatively positive planned with someone instead of something just spur of the moment.]
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Well don't get hospitalized or anything either
I'll spend my birthday in a hospital if I've got to but they probably won't let you watch shark themed monster movies
I'm shit at making plans so you can just text me on the 16th whenever you're on your way over
Or you can just show up
It's not like you haven't seen me with my pants off before
[now that she's thinking about it, why even pretend like they need that kind of formality?]
Fuck dude honestly if something urgent ever comes up you can just show up at my door and I will drop everything to help
I mean it
This flower shit gets bad and I will do everything I can to fix it
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So you might wanna be prepared.
Yeah?
If you ever see a giant flower that sounds like me outside your door when you're half-naked then just remember you said it was fine.
[HONESTLY SHE'S JOKING or at least trying to make a joke about it, but we all know the truth. WE ALL KNOW HOW POTENTIALLY REAL THAT IS.]
At risk of repeating myself for the millionth time though same to you.
Whatever weird shit that comes from being a robot I'll do anything I can to help.
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You know I love it when you say ominous shit like that
I got you though
[she's successfully parsed that second bit as a joke (but not as much of one as it could be), but hopefully Rose just means they'll get alcohol poisoning together on her birthday! you know, normal things that professional adults do.]
I'll give it a rest with the sappy shit too
You know me, only know how to say it when I'm drunk
Promise I'll be less disgusting in person
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Honestly.
Pretty sure we'd both combust if we said half the shit in here in person.
But if there's anything I've learned it's that being able to say shit while you're fucked up is probably better than never saying it at all.
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I think people are okay at reading you but I don't know I'm fucked up
God I'm just going to end up going in circles like this
Just just take care of yourself okay
Retro specks bullshit is easier to deal with with you in it
Haha fuck I can't stop being gay what's wrong with me
Maybe I should give it a rest for tonight if this is all I'm going to be able to do until I sober up
That's like the responsible thing to do right
That's what an actual 26 year old woman with her life in order would do right
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But given that I'm probably about to pass out myself I agree this is what adult women with their lives in order would do.
I'll see you when I see you.
And you better be in one piece still when I do.
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I'll keep myself together
Promise
[then she shuts herself up, picks up her phone again, and sends one (1) heart emoji before passing the fuck out.]